Untitled Poem from March 2008:
There I was
Sitting on the floor in a small room
My legs tucked in, my arms holding tight
My head bowed
Surrounded by darkness
The air heavy and thick
Nothing
Empty
Black
I tried to scream
Run
but I didn't move
Inside I was thrashing, kicking
TRYING to break free
But I remained still, motionless
I prayed for someone to save me
or hope
The walls
darkness
numbness
were all closing in
Shivering cold,
I took my last breath
And opened my eyes
I was in a clearing
of warm welcoming Light
I was dancing in the sun
Twirling, arms open wide to the sky
Head held up
Laughing
Loving warmth flowing
through my being
I sat down peacefully
looked around
The light was coming from people all around me
They were all smiling
They knew me
They loved me
Like in this poem, one day I opened my eyes to a whole different world than I had known before. It was always there, I just wasn't ready or able to see it. Since my eyes have been opened, I have begun to see that the reality I had once lived in was far from the truth.
